Feel like I'm going backwards.
Hello all, long time lurker, first time poster, stuck in old habbits.
I feel as if I haven't improved in my technical ability, if anything, I have gone backwards.
A bit about me;
I'm 21 years old, self taught, hated art class in school, thought I was a know it all. I bought my first graphics tablet in 2007, a Bamboo fun, upgraded to an intuos 4 in 2009, then to a intuos 5 in 2012.
I gave up drawing about 3 years ago, feeling like i couldn't draw, gave it a shot and drew my favourite piece, then stopped again, for reasons I'm not sure of.
I always wanted to be a concept artist for games, growing up I was an avid gamer, and I wanted more than anything to design characters and see them come to life.
Now at 21 and feeling empty with my 'talents' I don't know how to improve anymore. I'll attach a few images with timelines to show how I'm feeling.
I did this in 2006 with a mouse in photoshop, at the age of 15.
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2008, I did 4 images all of similar style in the same month.
Also 2008, I really wanted to stop using lineart.
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2009, and my favorite pieces to date..
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2011 I did some art work for a small indie game that I ended up not working for partway through the project and my work made redundant but I think this was some of my better work.
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And now in 2013 all I can do is little chibi-like characters... And when I sit and try to draw even from photo or real life I just get nothing... Perhaps it's my own punishment for stopping for so long, my style feels like it's gone back 3 years and is stuck :(
I obviously get a tonne of inspiration from games and fantasy, even then, I just cant seem to draw it! I created a youtube channel and recorded about 5 or 6 of my last pieces, and i sit and watch them and wonder "how" did i do it? Is it normal to feel as if you never knew how to draw at all?
Feel free to be brutal with ideas/critique, I could use a kick up the butt I think.